Sometimes life can be a blur.
Though lately, this pandemic has slowed my life down significantly and produced very precise highlights in time. After the first three months of abiding to North Carolina’s “stay-at-home” mandate and pretty much leaving once a week to buy groceries down the street, Khang and I cautiously decided to visit our nephews near the DC area. I remember hesitantly hugging both nephews and my sister/brother-in-law. It felt like a very unknown gesture that seemed so out of practice. But we hopped right into it as “Uncle and Auntie T-rex” (major kudos to Khang for giving us such awesome monikers!) because with young and active little boys…you gotta keep up! This pandemic has heartbreakingly cost unmeasurable lives and still is affecting our world in ways I feel will not be fully understood or uncovered for decades to come. Some days I feel like I am okay and other days, I have no words. And y’all, I am not on the front lines or deemed “essential”. So I will not even begin to unjustly try to imagine what it’s been like for those from grocery store workers to healthcare providers or the sacrifices they have made and continue to do at this very second. The optimist in me always trying to push through has shown how the “gift of time” has been given to me and Khang. I kind of touched on this here during our first 10 days in. To put it short, our week-long visit with our nephews really changed us. I do not know if they will remember it 10 or 20 years from now, but I know I will. I cannot recall when I realized I wanted to marry Khang. It just kind of happened over the course of time. But knowing for sure when we wanted to grow our family. Well that happened during this trip to DC. We realized we want to try sooner than later. Babies are cute, don’t get me wrong. But as they get older. Gosh it’s the best in my opinion! Their personalities shine through and you appreciate that they have their own little thoughts and opinions. And their avid enthusiasm to learn and soak up information is just the sweetest and most rewarding feeling because you played a tiny part in it. And when you don’t, you are the proudest ever because they learned it all on their own! I know being an aunt is nothing compared to being a mom. Not even close, but I accept I will not know until I become one. However, I will always remember that being an aunt, their Auntie T-rex, is when and how I first realized I was “ready” to be a Mom. Here are a few photos from us at the Strawberry Patch, which we used to make homemade strawberry ice cream and mixed cocktails. Such delicious summer treats! Just to be clear, “sooner” for us is still a few years out. But even so, we practice Natural Family Planning (NFP) and that has always put us in the mindset of “having a baby is a blessing” at any time. So actually what was the main point of this blog?? Khang and I are closer to growing our little family and well, I am just the happiest thinking about it all. Thank you for reading and following along with me, Jules.
